i hesitate to recall- when it came to be,
but one day- long ago, my Father had to leave.
thou always there for many years since- His mind,
His thoughts, perched beyond a fence.
no gate in sight, to high for flight, i watched and i watched,
as what We had- faded into the night.
still, if i think back when and think of Him, i would venture to guess,
as i left for school, and was on my own away from home,
i lost Him then. yes- i lost Him then.
unaware at the time, my life ever changing,
my childhood left behind, my heart left dangling-.
to busy to know. to busy to care. to busy to see that He was no longer there-.
He was no longer there.
and yet- it is now these years later i see,
how much he really must have meant to me.
the hurt is profound, as the need to know,
if He still loves me, as i thought He did long ago.
and now as i have become a Father too, i will never let,
what happen to me, happen to You.